Was almost at my breaking point.......
Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behavior, feelings and sense of well-being. People with a depressed mood can feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, ashamed or restless. They may lose interest in activities that were once pleasurable, experience loss of appetite or overeating, have problems concentrating, remembering details or making decisions, and may contemplate, attempt or commit suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, aches, pains, digestive problems or reduced energy may also be present (www.wikipedia.com)
October 2014 two weeks before my 27th birthday, depression hit me very hard. Many might say "you depressed?! You always seemed happy and well put together, you've been so strong for 8 years." I covered up a lot so people would not see what was wrong with me. When people admit they have depression, they get frowned upon and even called “crazy”. I didn't want to mention to anyone how I felt or what was wrong because I was so worried about people judging me and making it seem as though I was weak. My daughter’s father passed away 8 years ago and I never really got a chance to grieve like I needed to. I was three months pregnant when he died so I had to immediately jump into mommy mode. I often asked God why?! Why me?! I don't deserve this! I noticed I was crying everyday never wanted to leave my room always getting frustrated with my child when all she was doing was being a kid. My child's father passing was only one trigger of my depression, I was in a relationship where I felt worthless, not appreciated! I often felt like what's the point of living, amongst other things that triggered my depression. I thought about ending my life because I could not deal with the pain and war that was going on in my mind. If you know of anyone dealing with depression do not ignore the signs! Let them vent and express to you how they feel. For those that are dealing with depression asking for help does not make you weak! Talk to a therapist!
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